The skin on her chest and upper
arms was cold. She had splashed it with freshly scented vanilla water a couple
of moments ago. There were some crystals resting on her chest which did not
dissolve yet. She crushed them with her fingers. She looked on her left. The
candle was lit and for a moment she was tempted to approach her hand in the
flame, but she stopped at the last moment.
His eyes were burning. He was
disappointed in her.
She felt like crying, but she was
unable to shed a single tear. She was messed up and she was not understood.
1000000 thoughts on her mind.
The impossibility to focus. The lack
of cohesion.
All she could see were purple
dots.
Hopeless.
There was no way out.
One single comforting thought. She
said NO.
She never got what she wanted
from all the persons she has ever gotten close to. She was never enough. She was
never fucking good enough.
She just wished she never got
involved in the first place. But that’s not her.
She’s the kind of person who
gives her all and does not receive anything in return.
It’s sad.
She needed you, but for your
information, never admitted that. She wanted you there, but you didn't. So, why
bother?
Everything and nothing at the
same time.
You were never there.
You did not get her.
You never will.
I go to bed thinking about you every night...emphasis on the last five words.
RăspundețiȘtergere