October 23rd

There's a brief moment right after you wake up that you somehow feel totally aware of the life you have. I mean, like in that moment there's all this raw emotion you've been trying to bottle up each second of your day. The entire reality of the situation hits you and you don't really know how to react to it. The first instinct is if you're a person called Laura to start crying. And so I did. At 6 am I started crying. I didn't even know why I was crying. All I knew was that I needed to let it all out somehow. What exactly I didn't know. There have been so many changes in the last couple of months, and mainly good ones. I feel happy about my life and myself in general. Which is a totally new and unfamiliar feeling for me. And I still feel that things change each day. I don't even understand the changes anymore.