DAY 5 - Where I would like to be in 10 years
I think that it's a bit unrealistic of myself to think about where I would like to be in 10 years. I like to plan things step by step. Given the fact that I have no idea if I've passed all my exams and my graduation thesis needs to be completed in about 2 weeks I'm not really in the mood to think about the next 10 years. First of all, I want to pass all my exams and graduate!
In 10 years' time I would really like to be living somewhere abroad. I hate my country. I hate its inhabitants! I guess that no matter where I go, there will still be shitty people around me. Yet I want, I need a change. I would also like to have somebody who will accept and want the same things as me out of life. I don't think that finding my "true love" is the soul purpose of my existence, although I wouldn't mind sharing my life with somebody. No marriage and no kids involved though.
I also wish that I would manage to create something or to do something meaningful. Translations aren't meaningful. I wish I could make a difference through my writing or through any form of art I enjoy making.
DAY 5 - A song that reminds you of someone
I'm a fake by The used reminds me of someone.
duminică, 5 iunie 2011
sâmbătă, 4 iunie 2011
Challenge time DAY 4
DAY 4 - Bullet my day
11:30 - woke up
11:35 - turned on my pc
11:40 - went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of caramel black tea
11:50 - went on the balcony and joined my father for a cigarette
12:00 - still sitting on the balcony and reading TIFF synopses
12:05 - smoking a cigarette while reading out loud summaries of today's movies so that my parents could decide what movie to pick
12:15 - went inside to check my e-mail (hoping to find out at least one exam result) and facebook
12:20 - got mad because I still didn't know any results
12:20 - 14:00 - diplom writing
14:00 - watched one episode of Six feet under while eating 2 slices of pizza
14:20 - smoked on the balcony while still watching Six feet under
14:30 - 17:00 - still diplom, cursing, hating my life, hating merging 4 word documents, hating sorting alphabetically all 9 pages of refferences; listening to Thrice to calm my nerves
17:00 - drank some orange drink with vodka, ate a couple of cookies and some strawberries
17:20 - checked my e-mail for potential exam results [again!]; no luck [again!]
17:30 - washed my hair
17:45 - 18:25 - what to do nooooow? i feel to guilty not doing anything, yet I don't feel very productive; checked my e-mail 1000000 times [again!]
18:25 - 18:26 - commented on a photo
18:26 - 19:20 - what to do nooooow? i feel to guilty not doing anything, yet I don't feel very productive; checked my e-mail 1000000 times [again!]
19:20 - I was bored therefore I ate another cookie
19:20 - 21:30 - watched Two and a half men
21:30 - 21:50 - got dressed
21:50 - 22:40 - walked to the cinema while listening to music
23:00 - 1:30 - muvi TIFF
DAY 4 - A song that makes me sad
Damn...I don't even know where to begin. A lot of the songs I used to listen to were sad ones, so I really have where to chose from. I can't really decide between "Rough hands", "A breath of sunshine", "Things aren't so beautiful now [Pt.2!!!]" and "Swallow the knife". I think I will eventually go for "A breath of sunshine" since I think it was one of my first out of a loooooong list of depressing songs I discovered on my own.
11:30 - woke up
11:35 - turned on my pc
11:40 - went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of caramel black tea
11:50 - went on the balcony and joined my father for a cigarette
12:00 - still sitting on the balcony and reading TIFF synopses
12:05 - smoking a cigarette while reading out loud summaries of today's movies so that my parents could decide what movie to pick
12:15 - went inside to check my e-mail (hoping to find out at least one exam result) and facebook
12:20 - got mad because I still didn't know any results
12:20 - 14:00 - diplom writing
14:00 - watched one episode of Six feet under while eating 2 slices of pizza
14:20 - smoked on the balcony while still watching Six feet under
14:30 - 17:00 - still diplom, cursing, hating my life, hating merging 4 word documents, hating sorting alphabetically all 9 pages of refferences; listening to Thrice to calm my nerves
17:00 - drank some orange drink with vodka, ate a couple of cookies and some strawberries
17:20 - checked my e-mail for potential exam results [again!]; no luck [again!]
17:30 - washed my hair
17:45 - 18:25 - what to do nooooow? i feel to guilty not doing anything, yet I don't feel very productive; checked my e-mail 1000000 times [again!]
18:25 - 18:26 - commented on a photo
18:26 - 19:20 - what to do nooooow? i feel to guilty not doing anything, yet I don't feel very productive; checked my e-mail 1000000 times [again!]
19:20 - I was bored therefore I ate another cookie
19:20 - 21:30 - watched Two and a half men
21:30 - 21:50 - got dressed
21:50 - 22:40 - walked to the cinema while listening to music
23:00 - 1:30 - muvi TIFF
DAY 4 - A song that makes me sad
Damn...I don't even know where to begin. A lot of the songs I used to listen to were sad ones, so I really have where to chose from. I can't really decide between "Rough hands", "A breath of sunshine", "Things aren't so beautiful now [Pt.2!!!]" and "Swallow the knife". I think I will eventually go for "A breath of sunshine" since I think it was one of my first out of a loooooong list of depressing songs I discovered on my own.
vineri, 3 iunie 2011
Challenge time DAY 3
DAY 3 - My zodiac sign and whether I think it fits my personality
My sign is Aquarius (and I recently, well about a year ago that the plural for Aquarius is Aquarians not Aquariuses). Anyway, I don't really know much about the description of my personality according to my sign. Yet I know that we love experiencing new things, but we have trouble settling down and we are sincere when we tell somebody that we love or care about them. However, we can still be single, yet happy; sometimes we don't mind being single.
I couldn't help myself and I searched for a description of Aquarians. Likes: dreaming and making plans for the future, thinking about the past, having fun. All these are correct and fully applicable to me. Dislikes: the ordinary [damn right I hate ordinary!], imitations and idealistic (I'm assuming that this is a downfall of us). Again all three things are correct.
Oh I remember I read somewhere that we are very artistic, emotional and rather introvert human beings. Which is true. I like to get away from the world at times and become a temporary loner. And the part with "artistic" suits me perfectly since I like to write, take pictures, create something. I used to have an obsession for bracelet making. I would buy elastic band, different color, sizes, models of tiny balls to put on the elastic string. I had an entire kit for this. Anyway...we also have good taste in music (although SOME bitches consider things otherwise), drama and art.
I guess I was rather brief, but I think I covered the basics.
DAY 3 - A song that makes me happy
Although I mostly listen to hardcore stuff, I also have happy songs in my playlist. Boys like girls and Cute is what we aim for always make me happy. A song that always makes me happy is Marriage to millions by Cute is what we aim for.
My sign is Aquarius (and I recently, well about a year ago that the plural for Aquarius is Aquarians not Aquariuses). Anyway, I don't really know much about the description of my personality according to my sign. Yet I know that we love experiencing new things, but we have trouble settling down and we are sincere when we tell somebody that we love or care about them. However, we can still be single, yet happy; sometimes we don't mind being single.
I couldn't help myself and I searched for a description of Aquarians. Likes: dreaming and making plans for the future, thinking about the past, having fun. All these are correct and fully applicable to me. Dislikes: the ordinary [damn right I hate ordinary!], imitations and idealistic (I'm assuming that this is a downfall of us). Again all three things are correct.
Oh I remember I read somewhere that we are very artistic, emotional and rather introvert human beings. Which is true. I like to get away from the world at times and become a temporary loner. And the part with "artistic" suits me perfectly since I like to write, take pictures, create something. I used to have an obsession for bracelet making. I would buy elastic band, different color, sizes, models of tiny balls to put on the elastic string. I had an entire kit for this. Anyway...we also have good taste in music (although SOME bitches consider things otherwise), drama and art.
I guess I was rather brief, but I think I covered the basics.
DAY 3 - A song that makes me happy
Although I mostly listen to hardcore stuff, I also have happy songs in my playlist. Boys like girls and Cute is what we aim for always make me happy. A song that always makes me happy is Marriage to millions by Cute is what we aim for.
joi, 2 iunie 2011
Challenge time DAY 2
DAY 2 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
1. I have a weird attraction for depressing songs, movies and documentaries
2. I always told myself that I would NEVER dye my hair blond, yet I've done it about half a year ago.
3. I don't like to be like everybody else, nor listen to the same music as everybody else. That's why nobody (beside two persons) has ever heard of the bands I listen to.
4. I used to like Tokio Hotel. It's kinda embarrassing now that I think about it, but at least something good came out of it: I learned a bit of German and because of them I even studied German for two years.
5. I don't have a drivers license although I'm 22.
6. I like doing things alone. A perfect day would sound like: waking up late, having a couple of slices of buttered toast and a cup of black tea with milk, watching movies, going out and taking pictures, while listening to music, then coming back home and watch more movies and going to bed.
7. I'm a nice person and I usually help people even though I bitch about it afterwards.
8. I like TALKING. Seriously. Just give me the opportunity to do so.
9. I like to listen to hardcore and screamo.
10. I am planning on getting a tattoo. Not sure about what I want to get, not where I want to get it, but I know I want it to be meaningful and not visible to the average eye.
11. I really want to spin fire one day and hopefully I will be able to do so in the future.
12. Sometimes I get the feeling that no matter how hard I try it's still not enough.
13. I'm a nerd. I mean I study hard and I'm a perfectionist at pretty much everything that I do. I like to make things as nice as possible.
14. I am never happy about my weight and sometimes I wouldn't eat for days in a row.
15. I should have been dead a long time ago. Yet here I am, I survived.
16. I like to write and in the past 5 years I've written 5 diaries, countless sheets of papers filled with poems or random thoughts, one poetry notebook, two notebooks with a novel I wrote when I was in high-school and about 30 pages of a new novel I've been working for a while, yet I didn't manage to finish it. Lately, I prefer to write my thoughts on the computer. If I'm not at home, I always have a few sheets of paper and a pen. I never know when I feel like writing.
17. I usually donate blood. I started donating blood 4 years ago, when I skipped a class and decided to donate blood in order to get an explanatory statement for missing classes that day. Now I usually donate about 2-3 times/year.
18. And no, I don't get grossed out at the sight of blood. I had tons of blood tests when I was younger and I'm used to the red body fluid.
19. I HATE French, although I study it at school. I hate speaking it, mostly because I can't have that awsome French rrrrrrr accent.
20. I hate vacuuming.
21. I hate cheese. Well I think I'm a bit open to eating certain types of cheese than I was a couple of years ago.
22. I find downloading the pictures I take, slightly editing them and putting them in folders relaxing.
23. Falling asleep with my head on somebody's chest and waking up next to the same person is the best feeling in the world.
24. I sometimes think that words cannot fully render how I feel.
25. I usually like dealing with other people's problems rather than my own.
26. I wish I could wear sunglasses during the summer, but it's rather impossible given the fact that I need to wear glasses. If I don't wear them I'm blind as a bat (I'm shortsighted).
27. I get easily offended or insulted, but I don't really show it.
28. I should have been named "Adela", but my parents finally decided to call me "Laura".
29. I often obsess about a song and I listen to it over and over for days, even weeks in a row.
30. I like to listen to how people I interact with express themselves and I try to refrain myself from correcting them (although I don't really manage to keep my mouth shut).
DAY 2 - my least favorite song
Surprisingly, my least favorite song is not some Lady Gaga, Rihana, Beyoncé song, it's this one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgFE5OQbt_g&feature=fvst
The beat just drives me crazy. It was such a hit last year, wherever I went puf, the song was all over the place, even in the bus [Jesus!]
1. I have a weird attraction for depressing songs, movies and documentaries
2. I always told myself that I would NEVER dye my hair blond, yet I've done it about half a year ago.
3. I don't like to be like everybody else, nor listen to the same music as everybody else. That's why nobody (beside two persons) has ever heard of the bands I listen to.
4. I used to like Tokio Hotel. It's kinda embarrassing now that I think about it, but at least something good came out of it: I learned a bit of German and because of them I even studied German for two years.
5. I don't have a drivers license although I'm 22.
6. I like doing things alone. A perfect day would sound like: waking up late, having a couple of slices of buttered toast and a cup of black tea with milk, watching movies, going out and taking pictures, while listening to music, then coming back home and watch more movies and going to bed.
7. I'm a nice person and I usually help people even though I bitch about it afterwards.
8. I like TALKING. Seriously. Just give me the opportunity to do so.
9. I like to listen to hardcore and screamo.
10. I am planning on getting a tattoo. Not sure about what I want to get, not where I want to get it, but I know I want it to be meaningful and not visible to the average eye.
11. I really want to spin fire one day and hopefully I will be able to do so in the future.
12. Sometimes I get the feeling that no matter how hard I try it's still not enough.
13. I'm a nerd. I mean I study hard and I'm a perfectionist at pretty much everything that I do. I like to make things as nice as possible.
14. I am never happy about my weight and sometimes I wouldn't eat for days in a row.
15. I should have been dead a long time ago. Yet here I am, I survived.
16. I like to write and in the past 5 years I've written 5 diaries, countless sheets of papers filled with poems or random thoughts, one poetry notebook, two notebooks with a novel I wrote when I was in high-school and about 30 pages of a new novel I've been working for a while, yet I didn't manage to finish it. Lately, I prefer to write my thoughts on the computer. If I'm not at home, I always have a few sheets of paper and a pen. I never know when I feel like writing.
17. I usually donate blood. I started donating blood 4 years ago, when I skipped a class and decided to donate blood in order to get an explanatory statement for missing classes that day. Now I usually donate about 2-3 times/year.
18. And no, I don't get grossed out at the sight of blood. I had tons of blood tests when I was younger and I'm used to the red body fluid.
19. I HATE French, although I study it at school. I hate speaking it, mostly because I can't have that awsome French rrrrrrr accent.
20. I hate vacuuming.
21. I hate cheese. Well I think I'm a bit open to eating certain types of cheese than I was a couple of years ago.
22. I find downloading the pictures I take, slightly editing them and putting them in folders relaxing.
23. Falling asleep with my head on somebody's chest and waking up next to the same person is the best feeling in the world.
24. I sometimes think that words cannot fully render how I feel.
25. I usually like dealing with other people's problems rather than my own.
26. I wish I could wear sunglasses during the summer, but it's rather impossible given the fact that I need to wear glasses. If I don't wear them I'm blind as a bat (I'm shortsighted).
27. I get easily offended or insulted, but I don't really show it.
28. I should have been named "Adela", but my parents finally decided to call me "Laura".
29. I often obsess about a song and I listen to it over and over for days, even weeks in a row.
30. I like to listen to how people I interact with express themselves and I try to refrain myself from correcting them (although I don't really manage to keep my mouth shut).
DAY 2 - my least favorite song
Surprisingly, my least favorite song is not some Lady Gaga, Rihana, Beyoncé song, it's this one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgFE5OQbt_g&feature=fvst
The beat just drives me crazy. It was such a hit last year, wherever I went puf, the song was all over the place, even in the bus [Jesus!]
miercuri, 1 iunie 2011
Challenge DAY 1
I don't know if I can fit in writing every day of my life for the following month, but I will try.
DAY 1 - The meaning behind my blog name
Hmmm...Actually the name of my blog is the name of a song by We came as Romans. I don't know why I thought of it, but I think that the name really reflects the way I see life. I also think that WCAR's song had a strong impact on me. They basically sing about how hard it is for humans to change their habits, to move on from the past and to look forward. All I ever did in my life was to look in the past because I always thought that it was so much better than the present (obviously it wasn't, duh!; it's just my twisted mind) and less dim than the future.
However, I consider that every experience I went through thought me something, it made me "grow" as a human being. I see certain things differently. I think differently. I feel differently. And that's because of every person I met up till now. Some of them had a great impact on me, they've changed me completely, damaged me. But hey! I still consider that I was lucky to have met them.
I never thought of things this way, but as time went by I realized that to grow as a person means to let things behind. I won't be a hypocrite and say that I've managed to apply the principle on myself. But at least I've realized what was wrong, right? That's a start.
DAY 1 - My favorite song
I had a bit of trouble deciding what was my favorite song since I listen to a lot of music genres. So after I've done a bit of thinking I came to the conclusion that my favorite song is "From heads unworthy" by Rise against. I remember the circumstances I came across it perfectly and each time I listen it I can almost see myself in her room half-asleep and trying to decipher the lyrics.
That's why I have several favorite songs and there is a meaning behind each and every one of them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQvjsN-54a4
duminică, 15 mai 2011
miercuri, 4 mai 2011
Safe and sound in phone lines
There are certain people who aren't meant to fit into your life no matter how much you want them to.Sau poate incerci sa te convingi singura ca de fapt ei iti sunt predestinati. Cateodata simti ca intr-adevar e asa, dar alteori te intrebi ce dumnezeu cauti alaturi de persoana de langa tine. Si cand ai astfel de ganduri ar fi cazul sa faci ceva. Si repede.
Credea ca nu se va descurca singura, desi i-a spus in repetate randuri ca are nevoie de el. He just didn't color her world, so she had to walk away.
Some days however, she just wished things turned out differently. This is because she sees the past far better than it actually was.
Stop hoping, god damn it!
Mi-e frica de...
S-a terminat.
S-a dus in baie. Prin geamul intredeschis se vedea cum ploua. S-a uitat in oglinda. Oare cine era persoana cu par blond cu suvite roz si ruj rosu pe buze? Nu semana cu ea. Deloc. I-a spus ca ea nu o va parasi niciodata. Apoi i-a zambit. Si a plecat. La fel de brusc precum a aparut.
Si-a luat toate lucrurile si a inchis usa. S-a asezat pe jos. Mai degraba s-a prabusit. Nici macar nu i-a pasat de tigara aprinsa. Si-a aruncat ochelarii. Isi simtea inima batand tot mai tare. Incerca sa respire mai rar si sa se calmeze. Dar inima ei nu putea fi controlata. Trebuia sa...trebuia sa...
The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you
I cried A LOT because of you
But I made the right choice.
It all became clear to me when I...
S-a auzit cum o usa deschizandu-se. Parca a fost trezita dintr-un vis. O lacrima se zbatea sa se scurga din ochiul ei drept. Dar nu a mai apucat.
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